Day 76

Day 76

30,000 IU a day of D3
800 MCG a day K2
1 pill of Sundown Fish Oil

1 Tbsp of Extra Virgin Olive Oil (Cobram Estate extra virgin olive oil, COOC Seal)
1/2 Tsp of Now Brand Inulin 
1 pill of Now Brand DHA-500 Fish Oil

Happy Sunday.

I am truly seeing the relation to ADHD and its progression to Autism over the years.  Monica seems more ADHD than Autistic every single day.  Her stimming and hyperactivity has skyrocketed.  Between her and Grandpa, it's no wonder I am exhausted.  

While many people on this protocol would call this a stand still, I am far from that opinion.  So many posts on Facebook talk about non verbal being the #1 tell all as far as improvement goes.  I am truly blessed that I don't limit Monica to verbal or non verbal.  She communicates more than most people, just not with words. She has gone as far as making a triangle with her fingers to tell me that she wants to watch the Shape O Bots episode on Sesame Street.   Need I remind you she is 6?  Not as far behind as a lot of non autism kiddos. 

While I would love to find something natural to slow her down a little, I know her brain is actively healing.  I am not messing with that.  I urge anyone who reads this later, that I know you are tired.  I know you feel like you are in this alone. You are not.  We don't have the language to explain our pure exhaustion. That's why you see so many of us blog, or video, or FB to vent.  It's our sanity, as well as documentation. 

Monica needs down time as much as she needs stimulation.  If you allow her to bust that energy out, she will have no choice but to take a break on the couch like she is right this second with her tablet with her fingers in her mouth stimming. 

Always remember this is not a race to cure.  This is a pace to healing.  We have no idea if or when things will happen.  Take breaks for the kiddos and yourself.  Don't let your spouse guilt you.  If they don't spend 24/7 365 days except for sleep and school, they probably don't spend 1 hr alone with the kid, and couldn't handle 45 minutes of meltdown.  It's not their fault.  God chose you as the one to care for our kiddo. Accept it, and look for us real people that get you.